6 years Jay, feels like 6 months darling, I just miss you constantly, the pain of not seeing your face, hearing your beautiful voice, listening to you play your guitar, watching you bound down the stairs to make some sweet microvable concoction and listening to your infectious giggle literally kills me inside son. Love you so much and miss you so deeply. You're always my heart and soul. So yesterday and Friday were really hard for me and Harley, Harley struggled really bad, Jack was so worried and Mr Darcy must have realised she was not in a good way, so he brought her a present.... Just came in house ran up stairs and dropped a live mouse straight on her in bed lol, I managed to save it though. So many signs you were here yesterday as well from feathers to music and grandma's scarf, it's always a comfort knowing you are around just wish I could see you and hold you tight, mind once I get to hold you again I'm never letting go. Hope you and Grandad are looking after each other darling, tell him I love and miss him too. Love and miss you my beautiful boy. Mam and Harley xxx