Oh Jay my heart is so sad, its Friday 26th April 2019, it was Friday 29th April 2016, so 3 years today darling when I last kissed you. I remember it snowing that day, it was end of April and it was snowing. We got off the metro at Gateshead, you had a sneaky laugh with a security guard outside the metro while watching drama or was it dance students performing some sort of mime... you wanted to go see Jade and I needed to go shopping for our holiday to New York, so we went into Greggs and I bought you and Jade some sausage rolls for your lunch. That was the last time I saw you alive, .... it is as raw to me today Jay, as it was then, I miss you every second of every day, I love you son so so much. xxx